My dear Audrey ❤

To be very honest, there isn't a single night that as I lay my exhausted self to sleep, I feel very bad for not doing good enough.

Every time I watch Audrey sleeping soundly from a very looong day of endless play (and may I add lots of crazy mess hehe), I feel really guilty for not having so much patience and energy to keep up with her tirelessness and silly plays.

God knows how much I am willing to pay in exchange of any pill, potion, or even a spell just to level to her extreme energy and enthusiasm, so I'll never feel tired until she herself is already drained.

The Lord knows how deeply I want to engage if there is any possible way to lengthen how much "super stretched" patience I already have inside me.

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These photo/s of Audrey breaks my heart terribly. T'was actually just one lame instance in a toddler's freaky topsy turvy mood. She was having crappy tantrums over something she herself can't figure out--you know how toddlers and pre-schoolers can be so emotional at times, they get insane moodswings even without any clear or specific reason at all. After a crazy tantrums mode, she ended up just wanting to video record herself like those kids she see in youtube. 

It so happened that it was one chaotic day for me trying to put together in a day all the chores that needed to be done asap, all the orders I needed to deliver, and all the errands I needed to meet. I just sat down trying to rest for a while so I can get moving again, then she suddenly became furious throwing a really bad tantrums--would not stop nor listen no matter how I try to calmly talk her out. I lost my patience and scolded her telling her she will get reprimanded if she doesn't stop.

She eventually calmed down knowing its a "no win" situation at this time and with the fear of being locked up if she failed to straighten up. She was actually okay already upon starting her "video." Though it was evident on this pic that she still has tears on her face, she was actually in her normal silly self in an instant.

Yet, I hated myself that day. I hated myself right after she hit the record button with voice still shaky though calmed down already. I hated myself for not having a little more patience--no matter how small. I hated myself for not being a better "mom" (who she loves deeply and unconditionally) at that moment of instability. I hated myself upon seeing these photos and every time I see them. I actually hated myself until now.

So now I'm doing this "practice" trying to somewhat train or psychologize myself with/thru that particular incident. Everytime I get in the brink of my patience, I check out these photos of her reminding myself of what happened. I never EVER want to see her like that again, I never ever want her to feel that way again. Never.

She means the world to me and I am very much willing to give the world to her. She loves me deeply, faithfully, and whole-hearted and I must do my all to protect her from any pain or suffering much more if inflicted by me no matter how "involuntary." She deserves to be happy. She deserves all the good this world can offer. She deserves the best.

Everyday is a test; and parenting consists of never-ending challenges. I'm just thinking that if I feel like I fail today, thank God there's tomorrow to do better. To try again even harder. Lord, help me to be a better Mother ❤

Cold Spot Ice Creamery

So I said to myself that if I really want to get things done I have to place things in perspective, prioritize which is urgent and which can be set aside, schedule stuff accordingly and START IMMEDIATELY.

And voila! I'm finally going back to writing (well, I'm trying) and I'm starting this so-called blog plan that I long intend to do.

As premiere, let me do a "review" kind of blog.. or whatever it is called. haha :)

Yesterday, my little daughter and I had a date at an Ice Cream Parlor along Maginhawa Street here in QC. We have been seeing the place for quite a while because it's near our eldest daughter's school (Holy Family School of QC) and we've been planning to visit the place since.

They still have the "SOFT OPENING" sign in the entrance. I was actually surprised that the place has more seats inside and it's air-conditioned. I initially thought that it's a sort of Ice Cream on the go type of store.

Upon entering the shop, Audrey got really excited seeing the different choices of Ice Cream sprinkles/toppings that she rushed by the counter. :) Of course, she wanted Chocolate Ice Cream and points at almost every toppers available to include in her cup! ^_^ I told her to just pick two because it won't all fit in a single cup.

She choose marshmallows (that's her favorite) and smarties. :) They have soft-served Ice Cream but as of the time that we were there, it is not available yet. So we got the other kind, which is more expensive but is good enough. It costs 65php for 1 scoop of Ice Cream in cone or cup plus additional 10php for each toppings. Hence, we spent 85php for our cup that we get to share. :)

Here's their menu.

We also tried their Twister Fries since my daughter really loves to eat. hehe

Twister Fries

This is their large size which costs 120php. Quite expensive but its good enough for two and tastes good enough too ;)

What Audrey did enjoy the most is the stack of toys in a small corner of the store that the customers can play with.

We are originally seated near the counter but we transferred near the toys! :)

Audrey is too busy for a selfie. hehe

Overall, the experience was splendid! Audrey had an awesome time with the food and the toys. It's a great place to crash if you want a cool dessert, also a perfect location to bond with family, and a few friends perhaps.

We will definite come back soon! :)